Wow I haven't updated in a long time. I've been so busy, well for the most part. I'm doing extremely good in school this year. Which is good for once. But my grades are the only thing that's going right for me. Everyone is annoying me so much lately. Casey Calvert died on Nov. 24th. He was the guitar player from Hawthorne Heights. I bet that everyone that cared about it last week doesn't even remember about it this week. They're going to forget about it until they find out how he died. They still don't know what happened to him just yet. But they fer sher know that it wasn't drug related. I still think about him, usally every day. The thing that bothered me was that me and Louise wanted to go see HH on the 28th, but yeahh. I'm just glad that I got to see them live twice when Casey was still with us. My mom is always yelling about things. I can't take it anymore. Honestly I can't. It's been almost six months of me being a vegitarian. And my mom is actually supporting me. Which is odd, but hey I'm not complaining. Oh gosh Reba is such a funny show. I'm so sick and tired of everyone at my high school. People are just picking fights with me and it's getting to be a pain in the ass. I'm just not going to let them get to me. I'm sick of them but hey that's just high school. Unwanted drama. Freaking people need to stop it and quit complaning about it. I don't know what else to say because I'm hella bored and I don't feel like typing anymore. bye.

Nothing seems to be looking up for me...nothing at all. It seems like one thing would go right and then the next something else would fall apart. I can't take it anymore. I thought that this summer was going to be different. Turns out I was dead wrong. I know it's like the 2nd week of vacation but It's just draging on. And I wish it would just end already. I know I hate school and all, but that's only because I can't put up with everyone's bullshit. I'm so sick and tired of everyone. It seems like the only thing my parents do is fight....It's kinda scary. I kinda wish I would move away. Get a fresh new start. But I don't want to leave my friends behind. But that I sit and think 'what friends?' none of them are ever there for me when I need them. And if I try to explain something to them that happended to me...they just laugh. So I'm better off moving far far away. I'm sick of seeing the same people everyday it's so boring. I need adventure or something. But everytime someone asks me if I want to hang out with them I end up making some stupid excuse. Idk...It's kinda like i'm pushing everyone away from me. Ah the only thing that I have is music. I mean that's the only thing that I have. I like to get lost in my thoughts and not care about anything else. I could have the most wonderfull dream and then I'll wake up and be like...damnit it was just a dream. And it pisses me off because nothing will ever go the way that I want it to go. ahhh I fucking hate life.

meow only 3 days of school left for me...it would be 4 but i moved my finals so that i don't have to come to school on the last day. I'll still have to go into the flippen school that day though because of my brother's graduation. ah I'm kinda excited to see how  next year goes. I got an art class...thank god...i almost didn't get one...so now i guess i'm just going to take 2 art classes my senior year. hummm that should be fun. they better fit my schedule, or imma kill someone. at the begining of the school year i did a self portrait and my mom freaking framed it and it's hanging on my living room wall..ah parents these days ha well i have to go because my movie i back on later